The Happiness That The Shinigami Gave Me - V3 Chapter 18
Volume 3 Chapter 18
It was the day after we returned from Kyoto. We were currently at Futako-Tamagawa Park. As the rainy season was about to end, the sky was clear without clouds. It was a gentle afternoon that heralded the end of the spring.
“‘I’ve been looking for you even before I met you,’ I told you this when we first talked, right?”
I took a slow, deep breath before I began to speak.
“Back when I was a kid, my mom killed me. I came back to life just to save you.”
Suzuno and I were at a coffee shop in the park area. From the terrace area we were sitting at, we could see the park, filled with cheerful conversation among mothers with their children and the smiling faces of people enjoying their walk with their pets.
Seeing the disparity between the scene in front of me and my past made me feel dizzy.
“When I was dying, I found myself riding a strange train. There, I met the shinigami.”
With her long hair tied in pigtails, Suzuno was holding a cafe latte with both hands.
“The shinigami told me…”
I knew I shouldn’t be telling her this.
But, if I didn’t tell her the truth about what happened, I would never be able to move on.
“I’ll meet my fated girl, a girl that could bring me happiness just by being around me. But she doesn’t have long to live.”
I couldn’t see Suzuno’s face.
“That’s why, I have to sacrifice my life for her.”
I was treated like a piece of junk by my own mother. Back then, I thought that I could let go of that kind of life without hesitation.
“And so, I came back to life just to meet her.”
To save my fated girl. That was my only purpose.
“I could tell the first time I laid my eyes on you. Back at the entrance ceremony, when I saw you leaning your back on the cherry blossom tree. I could tell that you’re my fated girl, Natsuhara Suzuno. My whole purpose in living is to protect you and that hasn’t changed.”
My feelings on the matter hadn’t changed, that was certain.
“For the longest time in my life, I always thought that I’d be able to attain happiness by sacrificing my life for you and yet…”
My words trembled. I choked.
“When I realized that I’ll disappear from this world once again, I—”
My breathing became ragged, but this was something that I had to tell her.
“This is why I’ve been avoiding you. I thought that if I were to avoid you, I wouldn’t have to die…”
A certain feeling began to overflow from inside me. If I didn’t close my eyes tightly and bite my lip strongly, I would definitely be swept around by this feeling.
I was afraid. I was afraid to be drowned in the disgusting, uncontrollable emotion that plagued my heart.
The bustling city around me, the sound of the chirping birds, I couldn’t hear them anymore.
Everything was quiet.
Maybe the world came to an end as I closed my eyes shut.
The world, Suzuno, everything had disappeared.
I was all alone, standing in the pitch-dark dreary world.
And within that tremendous feeling of loneliness.
Suzuno let out a small sigh, as if she had been holding her breath all this time.
Surprised by this, I looked up.
What was waiting for me was Suzuno’s tears, accompanied by her bright smile.