The Happiness That The Shinigami Gave Me - V3 Chapter 19
Volume 3 Chapter 19
Tears fell off Suzuno’s cheek, passing through the warm smile she showed me.
“Jeez, when you said you have something important to tell me, I thought you were gonna dump me.”
She wiped her tears before sipping her latte.
“Ah, the ice melted already. It’s still tasty though… Maybe because all my anxieties are gone?”
Why are you smiling like that?
“If I can’t protect you, you’ll die, you know? Aren’t you scared after hearing that? …Or maybe you don’t believe in things like shinigami or fate?”
“No, it isn’t like that.”
There was no hesitation in her answer as she looked straight at me.
“You know what, Yuuma? With you by my side, I think I can overcome anything.”
Her voice was clear like the air of spring.
It passed through my ears and invigorated my body.
“Shinigami, fate, or any of that stuff, I’m not afraid of them. I’m more afraid of the possibility of you hating me, Yuuma.”
“Also, not being afraid of death isn’t a good thing. Before I met you, I lived my life with the feeling that I could die at any moment. I didn’t fear death. I had no one to love me, so I didn’t know what was the point of staying alive.”
I remembered the cold tone her mother had when we met a while back.
“But, when you celebrated my birthday, Yuuma, it was the first time I felt glad to be alive.”
She was so dazzling. Her dark hair, flashing under the sun, looked so beautiful.
“Thanks to you, I found a meaning in my life. For the very first time in my life, I thought that it’s okay for me to keep on living. I don’t want to die anymore.”
Ah, I see.
Plop, something settled down in my stomach.
“I’m just like you, Suzuno.”
My life was sh*tty, I didn’t believe that someone like me would ever be loved by anyone. The Yamaoka couples were nice to me, but I didn’t believe that I was worthy of their kindness.
“…The reason I am afraid of death is because I love you so much.”
Because Suzuno was there. Her smile brightened up my world. I didn’t want to leave the world with her in it.
Tears started welling in my eyes.
I couldn’t stop it. How lame of me.
This swirling, uncontrollable feeling of ‘love’ inside me… I guess I didn’t need to suppress it anymore.
“I love you.”
I’d say it over and over if I had to.
The moment I laid my eyes on you, I fell in love with you.
But compared to back then, my love was now stronger, deeper and irrevocable.
“I don’t want to let you go. I don’t want to leave you behind.”
That was why, I…
“…I don’t want to die. I don’t want to die and leave you behind in this world…”
Right, I wanted to be with her. I didn’t want to hand her over to anyone.
That was why I didn’t want to die.
Hearing my words, Suzuno also started to cry.
“I could tell from your words earlier, that you truly love me and you think that I’m someone special…”
Suzuno’s face turned pink. Her expression was akin to the blooming cherry blossom, the herald of spring.
“You’ve really been looking for me, haven’t you?…”
The more time passed by, the more beautiful she became.
“Yuuma, thank you. Thank you for finding me. Thank you for staying with me and loving me. From now on, let me fulfill my role as your fated girl…”
We were both facing each other while crying. The gazes of people around us didn’t matter to us.
And we kept on crying until we eventually calmed down. After it was all over, I told Suzuno, “We’re just a pair of babies, aren’t we?” And she laughed at my words.
“True, we’re babies now. From today onwards, we will be reborn!”
We continued talking until the sky turned red. About our past and the future that was upon us.
We held hands for the first time.