Ore wo Suki nano wa Omae dake ka yo - Chapter 6 Part 3
Chapter 6 Part 3
Tuesday. The day after Monday, the day where I finally gained the peace I’ve been craving for.
When I woke up in the morning, I found that someone texted me while I was still sleeping.
It was Pansy. I didn’t need to open it to know the content of her message.
[Make sure to come, okay?]
Tch. I really didn’t want to go to the library anymore, but if I didn’t go, the matter from the other day wouldn’t be resolved.
Whatever, let’s go.
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As soon as lunchtime began, I immediately left for the library and opened the door forcefully.
Seeing me coming in, Pansy gestured for me to come closer to the reception desk.
With a forceful motion, I obeyed her and sat right in front of her.
“What do you want?”
“Oh my, you were the one who came here with your own two feet, you know?”
“You were the one who told me to come.”
She turned her gaze downward before taking a deep breath.
Almost immediately afterwards, she turned her gaze to me.
“Don’t you think things are getting interesting?”
“You did your best to help them, but all that effort went down the drain.”
“Akino-senpai and Hinata-san knew that their love was unrequited. Yet they still decided to support Oga-kun with all their strength. They’re quite pitiful, don’t you think?”
Her words pi**ed me off. I gotta say that she was a natural at this.
I came here to atone for the thing that I did to her the other day, but seeing her treating me this way just made any kind of guilt that I had for her disappear. This would make things between us even…no, she owed me an apology for this.
There were things that she couldn’t simply say freely.
“What are you…”
Just as I was about to lash out at her, Pansy interrupted me with her words.
“What is it?”
Fiddling with her hair, she kept her expressionless gaze on me. Then, she opened her mouth.
“This is when things get really interesting.”
I turned around after hearing the sound of the library door being opened, only to find three familiar faces standing there.
Sun-chan, Himawari and Cosmos.
Seeing me and Pansy together, they looked surprised.
Especially Sun-chan. There was a clear anger in his eyes.
Why the hell were these guys here?!
People wouldn’t normally visit the library during lunch!
They would occasionally come to borrow a book or two, but even that would only occur once a week or so!
“Joro… What the hell is this all about?!”
Sun-chan took a strong step forward while clenching his fists.
“T-This is… Um…”
“I’m wondering about the same thing as him, too, Joro. Why are you and Pansy together?”
Of course they’d react like this if they saw me together with Pansy.
They’d think that I lied to them about wanting to spend my lunchtime on my own. I was just using it as an excuse to ditch my duty to help them.
“I assume that Oga-kun is here because he wants to know me better? Then you two must be here to help him out.”
“Sorry, Sanshokuin-san, but can you please be quiet for a moment?”
Pansy, just shut the f**k up! So you knew that this would happen, didn’t you?!
That was why you told me to sit here instead of my usual sitting spot at the reading area! You were trying to seal off my escape route!
Hearing her mutter that word in a small voice just made my blood boil even more. Too bad that I didn’t have the lenience to show my anger.
There were three distrustful shuras that I had to deal with right in front of me.
“Joro-kun, can you tell me why you’re alone with Pansy-san here?”
Cosmos’ words were gentle, but there was no gentleness in her tone.
“Joro, I’ve told you about my feelings, haven’t I? Was everything that you said to me back then a lie?”
I didn’t tell you any lies, Sun-chan. You were just misunderstanding things.
“Joro, didn’t you say you were going to help us? Then, why are you here? Are you actually stabbing us in our backs?”
“I’ve heard from Himawari-san that you always disappear somewhere during lunch break, but I never thought that I’d find you here. What have you two been talking about?”
“By any chance, are you two actually going out? After I told you about my feelings…”
What the hell?! Why did they keep turning me into the bad guy here?!
Besides, the reason why I came here in the first place was because I had been helping those two girls out!
It wasn’t like Pansy and I were dating or anything!
Pansy liked me, but I hated her.
So, why did they keep treating me like the villain?!
Why must I suffer through this sh*t?!
Cosmos’ and Himawari’s voices echoed in my ears. Both of them were staring at me intensely.
What did I do to earn that kind of gaze?
I’ve been helping you two all this time!
Himawari, who did you think was the one who covered all your mess ups?!
Cosmos, when you were unable to do anything because of your embarrassment, who was the person who gave you a way out?
Couldn’t you two just believe in me for a second? I had my own circumstances too!
“I always thought that you’re an important childhood friend of mine, Joro. I guess you don’t feel the same way about me…”
“Me too. I always thought of you as a precious kouhai and a reliable friend. But, it seems like you don’t feel the same way about me…”
Okay, change! Joro! Switch! On!
“Don’t f**k with me!”
F**k this. I don’t care anymore. To hell with everything.
I need to give those two f**kers a piece of my mind or else I wouldn’t feel satisfied.
I’m done acting like their doormat.
“What the f**k are you two talking about? Important childhood friend of yours? Precious kouhai of yours? Bulls**t! If you two actually thought of me that way, you would at least listen to my words, but what did you two do?!”
Seeing my sudden change in temperament, the three people in front of me widened their eyes in surprise.
“Don’t you think that I’ll just keep quiet forever! You know what, f**k it, since you guys are running your mouth off about me like that, I’ll just do the same to you. F**k you!”
Since you guys wanted me to be the villain so badly, I’ll gladly entertain you guys.
I’ll show you guys my real personality.
“I’ll let you off Sun-chan. You don’t understand the full situation and I get where you’re coming from. I can’t blame you for acting this way. Those two however…”
Seeing the anger in my eyes, they flinched.
Ha?! Don’t you think I’ll let you guys off easy just because you are scared!
“W-What is it?”
“W-Why are you treating Sun-chan differently than us?”
“You two couldn’t even figure that out? Pathetic.”
I sneered at them.
“Think about how you two have been treating me. Whenever it was convenient for you two, you’d come to me and use me like a convenient tool. But as soon as the situation turned the worse for you two, you abandoned me and turned me into a villain. Even when I tried to convince you two that I’m on your side, you two never listened at all. I doubt that you two even give a single sh*t about me.”
They kept forcing me to do a lot of troublesome sh*t without even trying to pay me back.
First they treated me like a stick, then they treated me like a traitor. B*tches.
“Even after all that you two have the galls to call me your important childhood friend and precious kouhai? As a joke, that was a good one, I gotta admit. Haha.”
The moment I said those words, both Cosmos and Himawari looked taken aback.
It seemed like they had finally realized the way they had been treating me.
“Were you guys even being sincere when you said those words? Well, I doubt it, honestly. Seriously, why can’t you two just be honest with me?”
“Oi, Cosmos, Himawari.”
When I called their names out while glaring at them, they shrunk a little, but they were still able to return my gaze.
However, their gazes were weak.
“W-What is it?”
Those words were from Himawari. She was clearly frightened, but she still managed to squeeze out a reply.
Meanwhile Cosmos was patiently waiting for my next words with a fearful gaze.
“I’m neither your childhood friend nor precious kouhai!”
I knew this all along. It was hard for me to say the truth out loud, but it was harder for me to bottle it inside any longer. Consequences be d*mned.
This would at least destroy the relationship between me and the two of them, but I didn’t care. I had enough. I refuse to put up with their bulls**t any longer.
“I’m just a convenient tool to both of you!”
“And you two got the galls to talk s**t about me!”
I said those words in a strong tone. They could only shut their mouth in response.
Hah! Good, do that. This was the perfect moment for those two to reflect on what they had been doing!
…Finally! I won against them!
“O-Oi, J-Joro… Don’t you think you’ve said enough?”
Sun-chan rushed to stop me.
“I guess so.”
Hahaha! How was that, Cosmos?! Himawari?!
Bet you two were feeling guilty about this! How did it feel? S**k that! This was my perfect victory!
Under this circumstance, if I were to tell Sun-chan about everything, we’d be able to resolve the misunderstandings that he had about me.
On top of that, if I were to tell him that there was nothing going on between Pansy and me, everything would be resolved on a good note!
I ended up revealing my true personality, but knowing Sun-chan, he’d definitely just laugh it off with a ‘I didn’t know you are this kind of person,’ and accept it wholeheartedly.
That should settle everything! Things might turn awkward between me and the two girls, but who cares!
Being able to say what was in my mind felt good!
Eat that, Cosmos! Himawari! Ha!
That is why you shouldn’t get carried away! Karma finally caught up to you two!
“Even though you were on your own, you handled it splendidly, White Elephant, Joro-kun.”
Pansy said while holding the book ‘Obbel and Elephant’ by Miyazawa Kenji. (T/N: The book was about Obbel, a greedy man who tried to exploit the kindness of a white elephant and came to regret it after things that happened in the book afterwards.)
Hoho, it seemed like Pansy was agreeing with me.
I wasn’t in the wrong at all, glad you knew that, Pansy!
“You tried so hard to make at least one of them happy and yet they treated you cruelly after all that.”
You were completely right! I tried so hard just to make them happy!
Seriously, there were more bad things than good that came out of it! Besides, the things that I said earlier was—
“Then, why did you tell me to go out with Oga-kun, Joro-kun?”
Why would you bring that up now?
Wasn’t this the part where you would be taking my side?
Didn’t you say that you like me? Was this the right way to treat the person that you liked?
The moment he heard Pansy’s words, Sun-chan gripped my collar tightly.
“What did she mean, Joro? I thought you said that you were on Cosmos’ and Himawari’s side?”
“U-Um, you see…”
Strange. Why did this happen?
I thought this was the moment when they started to feel sorry for me and apologize to me. After that, we’ll reach a happy end together.
Was I wrong?
“He said something along the line of, ‘I’ll make one of the girls to be mine.’”
I never said that! At least I never said that to you!
I’ve only ever said that in my monologue!
At that moment, the two girls who had been in a depressed state were instantly revived.
Uwah! Both of them had blank looks on their faces. They even exuded black auras behind them.
“Joro-kun, can you explain?”
“Yes, I wanna hear your explanation too, Joro.”
“I-I swear I don’t feel that way anymore!”
“‘Anymore?’ So you used to feel that way.”
I dug my own grave. A deep one at that!
It was so deep that I couldn’t even see the bottom of it!
“Ah, could it be that you told me to go out with Oga-kun so you could go out with both of them at the same time?”
As soon as I shouted her name in my heart, Sun-chan opened his eyes wide and punched me.
Watch carefully, Cosmos, Himawari.
If you got carried away, karma would catch up to you.
Yes, just like what you two were seeing with your eyes.
Sun-chan hit me with all his strength.
The force of his punch was so strong that I ended up falling to the floor.
Sun-chan… You’re a pitcher, take care of your hands more…
While I was writhing on the floor, he approached me with a heroic gait. I could almost hear the BGM accompanying him.
I guess this was the perfect moment for me to reflect on what I had been doing.
“You piece of trash! Apologize to both of them!”
He didn’t even give me any chance to say anything before he sent another punch to my face.
My face was swollen. The nose that I was proud of became deformed. Seriously, you need to take care of your hands more…
Meanwhile, Cosmos and Himawari were only staring at me.
“Joro… This is shocking. You look like natto being boiled in the deep sea.” (T/N: I don’t understand what this is supposed to mean.Some people do think that natto is disgusting, so I guess this is just her way of calling him disgusting.)
Could I assume that she was calling me pretty? Well I would be sticky though. (T/N: If you don’t know, natto is sticky as hell.)
“I’m shocked too… You look like you could be stewed along with taro sludge.”
I would be dirty then! But it seemed that I’d still be sticky.
“You should… No, never mind. From now on, we are through. Don’t even try to approach the three of us anymore.”
Sun-chan said calmly as he dragged me out of the library. He did that far to separate me from the three of them. It was as if our friendship was a lie.
“It’s unfortunate, Joro. I wished that we could be friends forever.”
“I-I… Alsho… T-Thought the shame…”
“I see. But, we’re through now…”
His words were like the scythe of the grim reaper that cut through my heart.
Phew… Everything was finally over.
Himawari looked at me in dismay. Cosmos looked at me with a sad look. Meanwhile Pansy gave me a blank stare.
By the way, Pansy, why did you do this to me? I thought you said that you like me?
Was that a lie?
“I wasn’t lying.”
Pansy’s words were the last thing I heard before I got dragged out of the library by Sun-chan.
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“See you, Joro. You hypocrite, irredeemable loser.”
After tossing me in the abandoned men’s toilet, Sun-chan said that to me and left.
And so, I lost everything.
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